Wow, this topic is really personal for me as I’m sure it is for a lot of people. So I want to talk about it in a way that honors its personal nature. It’s kind of embarrassing to talk about but I’m getting really brave and I’m going to share my experience with you.
I remember the first time I ever felt like I wanted to masturbate. I was in bed, totally alone and I just couldn’t help but feel a bit strange, and, well, curious. I had no idea what I was doing, but I knew I felt something that I had to explore. So I made a conscious decision to do it, be completely naked and just let myself go. It was probably one of the most liberating experiences of my life.
I thought I’d only last a few minutes with it, but I was surprised to find out that I was able to keep going for quite some time; it felt like an eternity, really. I felt my body become more and more alive with pleasure and vibrators I found myself moaning out loud and enjoying every single moment of it. When I finished, I felt so peaceful and content. I felt like I couldn’t believe I had been so brave and that I had actually done it.
I was determined to try it again, and I kept finding ways to do it in private at home, with no one else knowing. After a while, my confidence grew to where I began to share my experiences with my closest friends. It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders; I was finally able to express this intimate part of myself and I felt a profound sense of freedom.
My love for masturbating grew rapidly, and before I knew it, it had become a giant part of my sexual life. I’d make sure to keep some time aside just for myself, be it late at night or in the morning, so I could just enjoy the experience and use it as a tool to explore my body and its sensations. I even began to use different methods and techniques to make it more fun and interesting; I’d use my hands, vibrators, and even put on a pleasant TV show that would give me something to focus on.
It all boils down to this; I feel incredibly blessed that I have learned how to be comfortable with my own body and explore it in my own time. It has been a long journey but I’m so grateful that I can finally feel free to express my sexuality however I please. I encourage anyone who is in a similar situation to try it out for themselves and just go with the flow. Who knows, you might discover something amazing.